That is the best word that I can find right now to describe me. I struggle with a lot of different aspects of my life right now. I think I had it easier when I lived in Cali because I had the MIL and FIL to kind of head things off and say wait. And I would have to stop and listen to them. By then things were reasoned out.
Here it’s different. Here I have people giving me their opinion of what they think I need and I have my opinion of what I think I need and not being able to rationalize it. That my friends, is not always a good thing.
So being here is a struggle for me. I have to learn to find my balance on this. So yet again more changes ahead, as I truely have to grow into me and what I want to be.