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That is the best word that I can find right now to describe me.  I struggle with a lot of different aspects of my life right now.  I think I had it easier when I lived in Cali because I had the MIL and FIL to kind of head things off and say wait.  And I would have to stop and listen to them.  By then things were reasoned out.

Here it’s different.  Here I have people giving me their opinion of what they think I need and I have my opinion of what I think I need and not being able to rationalize it.  That my friends, is not always a good thing.

So being here is a struggle for me.  I have to learn to find my balance on this.   So yet again more changes ahead, as I truely have to grow into me and what I want to be.

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