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Here we are on Christmas Morning.  As I’ve gone through the month, trying to prepare for the day and to an extent wish it was over and done with, I had to sit down.  To reflect, to think, about this particular holiday.

I haven’t really been in the Christmas mood this year.  I’ll admit that.  It seemed like a hastle.  Even though it’s not.  Mom said at one point she sort of felt bad I wasn’t getting anything this year from them, mostly that I didn’t have anyone to get me anything.

Well, I’ve gotten pictures from friends that I have missed.  The MIL is sending a little gift, G is sending a little gift, I got 2 mugs at work, a Christmas bonus, and a breadmaker.  And then I have to stop and think that I have something else.

I am surrounded by friends and family, near and far.  That is enough.  Christmas isn’t about presents, so many times, I feel like we forget the whole reason for this holiday.  I feel it’s gotten way too commercialized.  Christmas trees out on July, A christmas music dedicated radio station that plays nothing but Christas music from November 1st until the day after Christmas.  It’s all to much.

I have avoided most holiday stuff this year for the fact that I feel as if it’s being stuffed in my face every turn around.  I don’t like that.  I am the type who if something is forced on me I will rebel.  That’s just me.  And that’s sort of what I’ve done this year with the holiday.

I am going to use the rest of the year, to regroup.  To stop for a minute and figure out a plan.  Next year, I will be ready.

So for now, as the bread is baking, I am going to sit down with a cup of Earl Grey and start working on plan.  Because I can.

 

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