I’ve had it.  I am officially flustered over a few things.  I think it’s time to be a little real.  I’ve wanted to tackle the ugly subjects but have avoided it due to not wanting to hurt anyone’s feelings, but I guess that the time has come to not worry about stepping on anyone’s toes.  Hence, there is a new disclaimer on the right.  If you haven’t noticed it.  Stop right now, glance to your right and read it.  I’ll wait.

Okay, now then.  Self love.  I’m talking about love for yourself and taking care of yourself.  Not a narcissistic type of self love.  Maybe I should say self care.  To me, if you love yourself, you will take care of yourself.  I once put a post on Facebook saying Self Love is…  I had wanted some really good replies.  I’m not sure if I got any, but I do remember one sticking out.  It was from a relative saying that it was below love of God and love of family.

I’m sure she didn’t understand what I was getting at.  Some sides of my family are a bit on one track and can’t see much of the forest for the trees if you know what I mean.  But I feel like if you can’t take care of yourself and your needs to be a whole person, how can you expect to be able to tend to anything or anyone else?

Where is that line?  I’m in a process of finding myself and where that line is drawn for me.  Finding my place in this world for whatever it is that I’m supposed to do.  I admit it.  I’m one of the biggest works in progress.  I try not to be judgemental or hypocritical.  I really do.  I can’t say that I always am on the straight and narrow.  Yes, I am guilty of rash, sometime harsh judgements.  Yes I can be hypocritical.   When I have the facts, I’ll be the first to admit I’m wrong.  Ok, sometimes.  I do have a stubborn streak.

I feel like in the grand scheme of things, it’s our relationship with God that is our own worry.  Not Kris’, not Veronica’s, not Gina’s, not The Dali Lamas, not POTUS’, no one.  I don’t feel we should make a judgement to take away any rights of anyone.  Shouldn’t we all be able to be on an equal playing field in the end???  We’re all different folks, but we’re just the same.  We have the same wants and needs.  And I would like to think we have the same end destination.  We may not, but what happens on our road should be just that.  Our road.  Not the person next to us.

How can we get so mad about the separation of church and state when they are separate but not?  How can we  have the 10 Commandments taken out of our Courtrooms?  How is it we can have prayer taken out of our schools?  But some of those same people are people who are some of the first ones to step up and say “The Bible says…” and they step in wanting to take away rights because of what the bible says?  Yes it’s our guide book, it’s a lamp on our path, if we choose to follow it or not.  I know we are supposed to bare witness, but stop and think about this.

What kind of witness are we if we are hypocritical and judgemental and yet think going to Church when the door is open washes all that away?

I feel like sometimes we don’t have a handle on ourselves and disaster ensues.  Have you heard of a friend of mine called Karma?  She always comes around when you least expect it.  Good or bad, she’s there.  And more often that not, she’s just.

I just hate that we can be so miserable with ourselves that we have the need to make others around us as miserable.  Because we don’t have that love of self.  We don’t have the desire to take care of ourselves and the valuable gift of life that God has graced us with and the lessons we’re to learn.

Many times, we don’t see what’s our own forest for the trees.  We don’t see the meadow in the middle with the beautiful lavender fields that are swaying in the breeze of the perfect sunny day where the temperature is heavenly.  We don’t see the lake not to far away with the beautiful waterfall and a temperature that is just right.  We don’t see the animals or the flowers that make our forest beautiful.

We just don’t see the bigger picture.  And we don’t take care of ourselves like we should.  We think if we take care of what’s on the outside that the inside will be just as pretty.  Well folks, guess what.  Not matter what you do to yourself on the outside, if you don’t take care of the inside…  You’re just gonna be much like a Monet.  Really pretty far away, but a big ol’ mess when you get close.

You can say you are going to be a better person, a better Christian til you are blue in the face.  But no matter how much Church goin’ you do, how much money you give to the Church, how much of a pretty front you put on…It doesn’t mean a hill of beans if you don’t fix your heart and yourself and do what you know is right.

THAT my friends, should be our journey.  Let God, Karma and Mother Nature take care of the rest.

I am stepping off my soapbox for the day now. Until next time.

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