I didn’t have some of the greatest times starting out. I can admit that. I’ve seen and done a few things in my life. And it’s taken A LOT to happen the past 10+ years for me to grow up. I can admit that. It’s all a part of figuring out who I am.
My latest round comes from a conversation with someone dear and a new bedding search.
When I moved into the first apartment after I got back, the first few days were overwhelming to say the least. Trying to get everything organized, put up, getting what I needed. Figuring out where I was. Starting over. Yikes it was hard. I started working on the place, determined to make it mine. But then I figured, since I was moving to the back apartment, I would wait. Thinking I would be there for a bit, I put off getting anything else for the apartment. But then the girls moved out and I wanted to get the upstairs apt. So I put it off again.
And right now, it looks like they aren’t going to let me move. It’s a suspicion that they don’t want to change out the carpeting that has been there for a while. I was upset about it for a while. But I’ve slowly gotten over that. I pretty much decided that if that is the case, then I will stay where I am and wait and see how I feel about moving when the weather is not hot. I’ll wait and figure it out as I get there.
But in the meantime, it takes it being pointed out by someone else how far I’ve come lately. And this weekend even before the conversation, I started thinking. Why wait to get to that “perfect place” and decorate? Yes, to me it was about moving stuff and not moving as much stuff, but it’s all the same in the end.
So this weekend, I searched and searched and thought about what I wanted to do. And I decided to start working on the apartment, now. The first room I wanted to start with was my bedroom. I have to admit it was a little dark. Maybe it was the state I felt I was in. The black houndstooth, the dark purple. It was a bit overwhelmingly dark. I can admit that now. So I’ve been thinking what colors would brighten it up and make it better? I decided I wanted Grey, White, and Yellow. Awesome colors. So I searched and searched and revised it all on the fly. And at the end of the day I had the start.
I have a new bedding set of a grey bedskirt, yellow and white striped sheets, a white comforter, white shams, a grey and white striped body pillow, yellow throw pillows and a beautiful white pillow with a grey bow. I am trying to tie it in now with the existing black furniture and black curtains. And I’m happy when I look at it.
I have a list planned out for each room. I am going to finish the bedroom as much as I can (it’s too hot to redo the dresser right now.) before I move on to the next room. It might take a while but I’m ok with it. It’s progress.
Just like me. So I’m realizing it’s really what you make of it. And stop putting things off.